January 2012
5 posts
I'm a motherfuckin' liar.
So, I made a resolution for myself this year. Well, it’s more like making a (my teenage) dream come true. I started by cleaning out my dresser of brightly colored clothes. The only thing of color that stays: nail polish, underwear, and socks. No regrets, 2012.
bring up the past
swimming in my head
Much of 2011 was “spent” soul searching, figuring out myself, and deciding on my future (because fate/predestination is purely bullshit). Have I accomplished anything? Not really. More like walking in circles, but I’m OK with that. Living in the land of the rising sun teaches you the value of patience and the art of being subtly (even submissively) polite and a bigger...
December 2011
1 post
“「実際の人生は数学とは違う。そこではものごとは最短距離をとって流れるとは限らない。数学は僕にとって、なんて言えばいいのかな、あまりにも自然すぎるんだ。それは僕にと...”
– 村上春樹『１Ｑ８４ BOOK 1』
November 2011
2 posts
September 2011
4 posts
世界の中心で
If you’re too busy looking down on the ground to make sure you don’t trip over your own feet, you will miss out on what is flying by overhead. The world won’t stop spinning for any one’s sake.
August 2011
4 posts
3 tags
immortality
This year I tried really, truly hard to be nonjudgmental, level-headed, and ignorant of most of my pet-peeves and tried to accept everything. But how much can an average human condense and pack away all those grievances? That is until some knucklehead comes and knocks all those neatly piled boxes. As animosity seeps back into my bloodstream, it brought me to this point, why waste my niceties on...
1 tag
July 2011
1 post
i'm so cold.
I just wanna go home. I want someone to take care of me.. This week has been a hard on my mind and soul.. nerve-wrecking, busy, never ending, and insatiably lonely. If only those people knew behind all the laughs and smiles, my heart was actually breaking..
June 2011
5 posts
look to the stars
Just in what way do people feel happiness? Is it something that is wholesomely felt, a radiating warmth all throughout your body to be shared with everyone else? Happiness seems such a waste to be doused in, perhaps because it doesn’t come all too often in huge crashing waves. It’s like having high quality booze, food or drugs whatever have you, you don’t dive in and consume it...
“Time weighs down on you like an old, ambiguous dream. You keep on moving, trying...”
– 村上春樹 （海辺のカフカ）
May 2011
4 posts
subjectivism is my moral code
”you fake it ‘til you make it” are words of an honest man.
decompression
It’s hard to believe I’ve been here for over a month now and survived thus far. My mind feels like I’ve been here forever, but my heart has just finally began to settle in.
Living in a city where nobody knows you (and the people you do know live over 500 kilometers away), though exhilarating and liberating, it’s absolutely gut-wrenching lonely. On a good day, I speak...
April 2011
14 posts
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Seeing how I only have 4 days left for this month..
1. Find a cheap washing machine. 2. Buy either a rice cooker or microwave. 3. Create the perfect outfit to impress.
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has...
「私の心」
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Batman.
Is cool.
Sweet Afternoon Tea
We are all alone in this world. You may have a lover by your side now, but remember they will leave someday. And don’t be silly, nobody’s worth dying for.
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
I’m always in transit.
what rainy saturdays make people do..
GO CRAZY obviously.
difference
the suburbs
神奈川県, 川崎市 Kawasaki, Kanagawa 2007
the city
大阪市, 浪速区 （日本橋） (Nipponbashi) Naniwa-ku, Osaka 2011
OK, I realize I didn’t take any nice pictures of Osaka yet. And that’s the difference between a tourist and a resident, I suppose..
Day 03 & 04
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
I don’t have any. Fuckkkk I left all my photos on my old laptop and iPhone. I’m useless. Here’s a photo of beer with friends instead.
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have See above photo and figure it out yourself.
Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr name
bcup (n.)
I donned the nickname buttercup by an old friend, since it was long he shortened it to bcup. Ironically, my boobs are not b-cups. My favorite discontinued lipstick color from MAC was named B-cup. My twitter handle and cellphone email is also the same name (Unfortunately, I get spammed a lot of weird porn junk). Short and simple. That is all.
Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting...
1. I am now living in Namba. (And the fun died out once my bank ran dry.) 2. I am not a very interesting person, I realize. 3. One thing I absolutely hate is having a lot of free time, it turns me into a bitter person. 4. I have mastered the art of manipulation. 5. My facial expressions tell you mostly what I am thinking at the moment. 6. However, in certain situations, I have a great poker...
Because I have nothing better to do, right?
Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr name Day 03- A picture of you and your friends Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to Day 06- Favorite super hero and why Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you Day 08- Short term goals for this month...
March 2011
12 posts
144 Hours
Quick Nippon update, I suppose.. I’ve been neglecting tumblr because my internet is not always constant. I got a studio apartment in Namba, I move on the 29th. My alien registration card process takes a month because the district office is swamped, I can get an official piece of paper that serves as my gaijin card in a week. Until then, I have to sit tight on opening a bank account and cell...
LAX > HND > KIX
http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20110315/wl_asia_afp/japanquakeimagediplomacy
“WASHINGTON (AFP) – Despite the horrific scenes of destruction, Japan may emerge from its quake-tsunami disaster with a stronger international brand-name as the nation’s resilience wins wide praise.
Television stations around the world have broadcast the footage of the seismic waves as they razed homes and...
